Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Goodbye for now




As always, I lack time in the summer. So I will say goodbye and will be back with the first rainy days at the end of the summer.   I am attaching some photos from Croatian seaside, it was lovely to swim for couple of days. 

I am busy growing my vegetables:





My favourite sweet is terragon potica, here I backed half of potica terragon, half with blueberries:
The traditional potica is with walnuts, but I like to be creative.
News from few weeks back: the pope asked American first lady about potica, it was nice to see how many articles were published on this topic, here is one of them:
Potica

I have spent many beautiful walks with husband and Wolfie. This Sunday we were lucky to pick up these:

Spagetti with porcinis were delicious, so was the jam that I cooked.

A new highlight of this summer: I love to swim and  my nieces and a nephew love to swim, but their parents not so much. I love taking them to huge open swimming pool for a swim. I love being their aunt.

There were also some moments in July that I felt my childnessness again.

I was invited to an uncle's barbecue and nobody bother to tell me that also a distant relative was invited with her newborn, aged 4 weeks. It was aweful, all conversation involved talking about the baby, memories of giving childbirth, breastfeeding etc. Did I have to contribute anything to the conversation?   Social gatherings like that remind me that I don't fit and that I never will.

I spent some lovely moments with our distant family from Australia. I loved talking to them. We were talking about something and I know that I was thinking how easily I bond with some people. But then there was a comment (said by couple 15 years old then me, with 3 grown up children): "Yes, the wheels of life are turning." (the remaining of the sentence had to do something about their children and grandchildren).  I don't have children, so what are my wheels of life?


I love the impact that my pen-friends have on my life. I got a book recommendation from my beloved pen-friend, I just love this book:

The Last Lecture

 

Some quotes from the book that I liked: 






“We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand.”


“The key question to keep asking is, Are you spending your time on the right things? Because time is all you have." 


“Time is all you have and you may find one day that you have less than you think.”


“When we're connected to others, we become better people.”


This is all for now... enjoy the summer! (or if you are from the opposite part of the world, enjoy the winter ;)




Thursday, June 29, 2017

Beautiful sea

I am off for couple of days. We are going to our favourite summer destination: Croatia.


If you are interested to learn more: 
http://croatia.hr/
http://croatia.hr/en-GB/experiences/beaches
 
We are lucky that Croatian seaside is less then 2 hours driving away from our home.



Wednesday, June 28, 2017

A rainy day

There are days when I just feel different.

I was invited to a 25th anniversary of finishing secondary school.  How easy would it be to go to such a reunion if I had children.

I just couldn't face all the small talks. And noisy questions. And the feeling that I always get on reunions like that - that my life is worthless. 

Usually a long walk or cycling lifts my spirit. But today it is raining cats and dogs, so I preferred to stay inside after work.

Luckily I had a lovely novel to read:

The Japanese Lover

I have always loved Allende's novels.

“You only have one life, but if you live it well, that’s enough. The only reality is now, today. What are you waiting for to be happy?”
Isabel Allende, The Japanese Lover  


The Lost Tribe of Childless Women



I just loved this TED talk!


Friday, June 23, 2017

Alpe Adria Cycling Trail


















I just returned from a great cycling tour with my husband. We went cycling on Alpe Adria Cycling Trail, from south of Austria to Salzburg: https://www.alpe-adria-radweg.com/en/ 

We cycled 180 kilometers in 3 days. It isn't a lot of kilometers, but some of them were quite steep.

I am attaching some photos. 

The next cycling trip will be at the end of summer, the southern part of the cycling trail: to Italian seaside.





Thursday, June 15, 2017

Gl├╝cklich – auch ohne Kind / Happy - also without a child

My language is spoken only by two million people so that's why it is important to speak many foreign languages. I am glad I do, otherwise I wouldn't understand this lovely video. It is in German, I got the link on Elaine's blog. Since I have lots of visitors also from German speaking countries I am attaching the link:

https://www.zdf.de/gesellschaft/ml-mona-lisa/kinderwunsch-gluecklich-auch-ohne-kind-100.html 

The couple in their early 30s is telling their story about stopping fertility treatments and living without their own children, but yet surrounded with other people's children. I just love this couple! I wish them all the best.

The moment that I loved the most in the video is when she is telling her memories, how she couldn't live with the guilt that he would remain childless because of her. So she told him that he has to leave her. And he replied: "My family is you."
What a wonderful answer! 

And here is his blog: http://www.vaterwunsch.de/ 
This is the very first blog of a man who is writing about living after infertility.